As many of us have experienced, as humans we feel that «emptiness» in our lives or in our hearts, throughout our lives. Personally, I’ve always tried to fill that void in the wrong ways. Thank God, I always had academic and professional satisfaction, but it was not enough. I had the opportunity to travel, to have provision, but I still felt empty. He was looking to fill the void through romantic or social relationships, but this went from bad to worse. My search for approval and acceptance to fill the void led me to make very bad decisions, in which I finally lost many things: my peace, health, economic freedom, joy, family, friends, and myself.
Even though I was far from God and running away from him, I always received messages through people, from radio shows, social media posts, books, and more. But God knows my personality and he just did it in a way and to a degree that still caught my attention. It was the exact measurement, because with a little pressure, I ran. Finally, in the most subtle way, he drew me to him. I went to a church just because I liked their music, that was the way God used to bring me back , and there He filled me with his love again and conquered me completely.
Despite living humanly, the worst time of my life, with pain, with guilt, bankrupt, defeated, like a prodigal daughter, I lived at the same time, the most wonderful love story. First, he filled me with his love, through his music. Little by little we advanced and began to talk, in my room I spent a lot of time talking with Him, I was also going to a cafeteria, taking out a notebook and writing to him everything I thought and felt, and He took me to biblical quotes, brought thoughts to my mind and thus, our relationship was formed. I didn’t read the Bible or pray because I «had to», but because it was the natural way to communicate, like in any relationship. Then, promises from the Bible began to come true, such as:
“Call on me in prayer and I will answer you. I will show you great and mysterious things that you still do not know about.” (Jeremiah 33:3 NET) It is not symbolic, it was literal, although there is still a long way to go.
«You are my friends if you do what I command.» (John 15:14 NIV) I learned about obedience, and although it was difficult, it was necessary to restore my life. And as I obeyed, I learned wonderful things that I never imagined I could experience.
“…I am all you need. I give you My loving-favor. My power works best in weak people.”” (2 Corinthians 12:9 NLV) I spent years not understanding this verse, until I lived it. Truly in the most vulnerable moment of my life, God manifested his power and his love in me. My life was not restored overnight, however, even without everything being resolved, I learned the meaning of FULLNESS. Although humanly, there were still many things to resolve, I began to live in FULLNESS, I didn’t need anything else. I had peace again, and although it sounds simple, I dare to say that for those who have lost it, regaining peace, living without anxiety, without anguish, without depression, without insomnia, is one of the most valuable gifts you can receive. My life was so full of his love that any other situation was simply secondary. God has taken me by the hand, step by step to restore every part of my life. But the most important thing is that the void finally disappeared.
God loves you, like he loves me, and only waits for us to open our hearts to him, to have a GREAT LOVE STORY. His love is the fullness your heart longs for.
“And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them.” ” (1 John 4:16 NIV)
